Diary Edition of April 2024✍🏻

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Hello beautiful creatures from the internet, welcome back or to my blog, if you are new here, Hi! My name is JasmineEva, I am a Pisces, a poet/artist, and Videomaker. And today I want to share my apparel with you guys, there will be a video as well by the time this goes out but I feel that writing is more sensual and personal.. not that videos are not.. okay lets not go down into the rabbit whole with this. I hope yall will like it.

April was the colourful, amazing and extra month out of 2024 so far. Starting with an Alice in Wonderland themed easter egg hunt and then going to Greece. Also seeing an art exhibition celebrating a birthday and one of the most important in my life; getting back my inspiration, my artistic and creative views on things and starting my writing again. We also have eaten delicious meals drank beautiful wines, roses and other drinks, and all together "not seeing the clouds after they are gone" I can say that it was a very good month.

Since I have made a video about my trip to Greece and the celebrations were all family oriented, don't really want to share them and to be honest the most important thing, the only thing I want to talk about is that I started to write again! I don't know if anyone or like who knows this, but I have been writing since I learned how to read and write. I started with short stories and little poems that didn't rhyme or made sense and that's why they made sense. But I have lost these notebooks as well as my literature book that got one of my most amazingest poems ever, a long war poem but I wrote stories as well, not just poetry. After we moved from Hungary to Ireland, in 2018 I restarted writing into a notebook which was and still is cover with black velvet. I also started to publish my art, my mind on my website in 2021.

Now days I write poems, short stories, blog posts and last week I started my real first want-this-to-be-published-at-some-point-in-my-youth novel !!

Not even this disgusting grey rainy autumn weather can break me down, yes the weather is fully like that here, but fu*k it ╭∩╮( •̀_•́ )╭∩╮ I even got inspiration from this glum so take that!

My spirit, my soul my creativity is bigger than that, it's not just a wave but this is it, I feel the change and the love from my body, mind and soul.

I have seen the sea and my tan line. Myself, my art climbing out of me to the paper and showing me myself. This is me, no doubt. I belong to the sun and the sun and I need to listen to art and read my oracle cards. I need to be me. I want my raw, tender, creative, free and hippie self out in real life. Having a joint in my van painting and being in love. Listening to my vinyl records in the forest. That is me.

I feel that my true self yet to come out, but I feel and believe that even now this is me as well, its so weird, realising these things. Having a light on who am I really and who am I when I am with my family.

Constantly fucking up, and crying am I far from my goals and dreams why is it me? I make mistakes, I am nervous, I feel to be an expectation, a disappointment I don't know who I am when I am with them. Am I less or more than me around them, do they block me? Yes. But..

I am on the way to figure out myself, it is time I am twenty-two for God sakes am I late to do so these things?

Parts from my diary, check

Pictures form april, check

well I think thats it then.

Until next time, dont forget to stay hydrated and focused on yourself !

xxx

JasmineEva

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