Diary Edition again, but in 2023

After writing the crystals part 2 blog post I felt a bit down, hit rock bottom finally. I know if I can hit the bottom, deep, dark, emotional horror, there is only one way, going up back to the top and keep going, maybe climb a bit here, so if you fall you fall to your normal level of an okay or even better; happy!

So first of all sorry for those who were counting on the crystal info post that is coming as well I promise, but I just need to take a break from all this feeling sad and feeling the loss and everything, even though that has nothing to do with crystals. It's just connected in my head. Sorry about that but I promise the info sheet is coming soon!!!

A few days ago I had a 'topics to talk about' thing on Instagram . Some of you didn't really understand it and it was soon turned to be a q&a which I didn't do in a long while so I didn't mind, but at the beginning there were some good ideas.

Dreams and goals, current favourite music conspiracy theories opinion bout the world we live in/on and that had even deeper areas.

The idea of me writing a book as one of you suggested, just because we ad a good chat for a few days, btw that meant the world to me. And maybe I will write a book.

Today I would like to have a post inspired by 'Any current favs?' and diary editions.

But for current favs. there are so many eras; movies, books, music, manga, food..

So lets move as I live, kitchen, dining-living room then bed and bath- rooms, so food, movies, books, music then bathroom makeup and hair care products, bedroom; clothes crystals and all the other stuff like tv shows and stuff.

A current must have during my days is workout routine, coffee and good music and my new jewelry; rings earrings necklace, that's part of my moring. I'm not much of a skin care pro. person, but I do like a good face mask on every second or fourth day in the evening while I watch my current series, The Vampire Diaries .

Anabel and Julia the slay queens / ex-coworkers introduced me to the show, after we finished working at the same time. They mentioned something about the two guys and I had no idea so I asked them and well they were so excited to explain the team Stefan and team demon things, I had to check it out. This is how it started.. this is how I got to be introduced to the show. I took a break after I thought Katerina was killed, but then not so long ago I restarted it, from the point I left it and I still love it. Except Caroline who seems to be on team Stefan, and if everything is finally okay if not better with everyone, well she needs some drama and creates more issues like Marial from The Great (also recommend that show). I love how the characters are changing and developing how through many seasons, its only one bigger chaos creator enemy and it doesn't change I like the creative smaller issues, the new characters are always surprisingly having a great twist. Yes, almost every is a vampire or wolf but I like it, I like the early 2000's romance drama, I like it more than twilight, honestly not really a fan of that trio movie. I even enjoy the weird teens being so not teens, you see barely any parents to for example the six packs on the guys as seventeen like what the?? I am just at season 4 but I believe I am and always will be a team.. Damon, more of my type and at heart he always wants what best for Elena. And you know what, I like Klaus.

To be honest, I started this post a while ago, I don't want to edit what I felt but I don't feel it anymore. I'm okay or even happy. But I don't really see the point of.. ah anyway lets just continue.

Beside my current tv show, my all time favorite series is Totally Spies I am also a anime lover;

Inuyasha,Violet Evergarden,Kakegurui,Toradora!, of course Demon Slayer and many more.

And now that we are at Anime, my favourite and only manga that I collect is The Apothecary Diaries (next episode coming next month) and my next thing to collect is Inuyasha <3

What I curenty reading is; Ipolyi Arnold Magyar Mythologia, Graham Hancock Magicians of the Gods, and 21 days to work with crystals from Judy Hall .

I recommend all of them. Also, now that I brought up Graham Hancock, I would like to recommend Joe Rogan's podcast its so freakishly good, full of open minded experienced story telling people. A lot more than these few words just go and check it out!!! No promo or add, I just truly love it.

Dear Diary,
I know I didn't write since I got back from Italy except when I went to the movies. I sort of miss it, but there are so many things and emotions happening.. I just wanna live life and work with crystals.
I don't feel sad anymore, I feel nothing to be honest, it's a bit weird but I had people in my life like this, fake. Use me and drop me.I always have a wall when it comes to people, boundaries, and I always have this feeling that I am going to lose, so when I actually lose someone it hurt less, I just get surprised that I was right again.
Anyway, with being emotionless towards this person, I really got lifted up like a stone from my shoulder fall off and now I am above water not down suffocating.. It's a freeing feeling I feel happy a bit for myself which makes my life better and focusing on only the good  things.
I started to work on my big art piece again, it makes me feel focused and strong, confidence which now days I only get from myself. In that case I start to be independent. I also started to take serious the work I have to put in to accomplish my goals and dreams and move out of my parents house and get a van, an online job and travel.
Also recently, two Insta communities invited me and I feel that my Insta is growing recently I got new followers as well and my platform and website community is really growing, blooming and we are just supporting each other. Which is just so 'AWWWWW'<333
I also started to embrace my true free spirit crystal and cards loving hippie self, and I think that also helped gaining more followers or people joining my community.
I am always true to myself and others, but I was scared before, like oh what if I don't fit in no one likes me follows me blah blah that's bullshit, if they don't follow and or like me for who I am that it's a fake relationship thing which I don't want so Duck it! This is me like it or not. I like it haha

I hope you liked this blog post, I know it was a bit different than the posts I did lately. Also big thanks for all the positiveness you gave Lisa, and she will be back with her style do not worry <3

For open minded people only!

Have a great day☀️