Mental Health Journaling. Updates and happiness

' OMG, what a beautiful world, if you take some parts away and just look at the happy bright bubblegum part, when you are like on the top of the roller coaster its so clear and amazing. '

So how did I ended up here?

Well, to be honest last week was like one of the deepest point. I got enough of myself and my loneliness.

During my life I lost a lot of (not true it seems) people, and thanks to being an outsider, having health and confidence problems then Covid I couldn't get as many people arround me as I always dreamed, and in one or two parts of my life I didn't even try.. I just gave up. So I had enough and I made a huge step.

'I opened to the world' (again). I'm telling you its hard to make the first step, but after all. WOW!

I started to search for friends online, on apps and I found one particular app where I started to chat with like more than 20 people, my depression like an animal from fire run away, I felt so good that finally I'm not just talking to my family (or to myself).

This or these actions made me so happy, I know that at the moment its just through my phone, but I also know that I'll meet with some of them.

So yeah, I started a social life (finally) and I don't feel lonely. I dont know how all of this sounds, but I don't even care. I know there are people out there like me, and for them and for my depression version I say: There are always hope and options!

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Last week was a very progressive week, not just because I reached out "and got some results", but because I was doing well with my tasks for my depression problems.

And I realized that I don't have to look on other people's bodies or body-type as guide lines. I don't want to fit into the crazy body trends as I'm out of the clothing, style and makeup because I'm being myself I'm not gonna torture myself with this body trends aka how you should or shouldn't look.

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🌸 #hopehealthbeauty to all, xxx