Me & My Story

In this world of body positivity, it is a big relief, that we can freely express of who we truly are, independently of our looks. But I still find it frustrating sometimes, that most of these messages focus on helping overweight women accepting themselves. I, for a long time, was not a good friend of the scale, but for the opposite reason, and that made me feel in visible , especially when others kept telling me to “get meat on my bones” or repeating how pale & skinny I looked (not a compliment; and definitely no encouragement either). Sometimes I feel that body positivity somehow leans to skinny shaming and thanks but-no-thanks I am no advocate of that AT ALL.

I am JasmineEva,

I love my name, because the jasmine flower it reminds you of, while sweet and fragile looking, is actually a strong and persistent plant. It not only survives, but actually blossoms under every climate. For a little care, this strong and tough plant gives you loads of sweet smelling, beautiful flowers. I don’t only know that. I live it every day.

I chose this flower to be the logo of my brand – promoting the message to take control over your life , make positive changes🌸 , dare to be yourself and express who you are.

This is the story of my journey

It starts with my 17 year old self, underweight (37kg), on the verge of force feeding with my parents pushing me to eat one slice of pizza , that took two hours to manage with constant my mirror hates me episodes, to say the least.

But today I'm 18 years old 53 kg, starting college life , healthy and happy , a body positive blogger promoting underweight awareness , emotional health and the never give up never surrender attitude, that pulled me through.

My turning point was when I got into hospital with 35 kg, and realized that it simply could not carry on like this anymore.

I cannot take more shouting and pressure at each meal time, but I don't want to get force fed either. I cannot take more invisibility, but I wont be able to change certain people who judge me by my looks only. I cannot look into the mirror with hatred, but I wont be able to change my reflection in two days. So I made a 1 year contract with myself, and committed to work day by day for my goal, and get to a healthy weight and build up my body to shine the proper image of my inner self, by the end of that year. I also shared my contract with myself with my family, keeping myself accountable and also asking for specific support.

Be aware, that being underweight is not healthy. You need to consult a doctor.

In this world of body positivity, it is a big relief, that we can freely express of who we truly are, independently of our looks. But I still find it frustrating sometimes, that most of these messages focus on helping overweight women accepting themselves. I, for a long time, was not a good friend of the scale, but for the opposite reason, and that made me feel in visible , especially when others kept telling me to “get meat on my bones” or repeating how pale & skinny I looked (not a compliment; and deffinetely no encouragement either). Sometimes I feel that body positivity somehow leans to skinny shaming and thanks but-no-thanks I am no advocate of that AT ALL.

My aim is to share hope and inspiration, definitely NOT substituting, rather supporting necessary medical help. As I am sharing the milestones of my journey, you will see, how grateful I am for my doctors for their expertise.

Keep your eyes peeled for my everyday tips & hints to emotional balance ; my art and design work ; and further insights into my own journey that led me here, taking a stand for who I am and what I had been struggling with, aiming to help those who struggle with underweight and feel alone and invisible. I am here. I hear you. Talk to me.

Ps. Be kind to me.

I have never shared my story with anyone outside my family, so I feel quite vulnerable , be kind to me and help spreading my message, so that it finds all those late teen girls and young women who are challenged by underweight problems . My goal is to in crease hope and carry on working out what you need to get back to the healthy wagon; and provide emotional support when you feel that nobody is noticing, understanding or supporting you.

🌸#hopehealthbeauty to all, xx